Much has happened since 2010 and I apologized not sharing this medical adventure I have been on.
Dr. Baluga became my miracle worker. I had blood drawn every week and he would come in and ask how I was doing? The same.
He said the synthetic nutropin HGS would kick in to a year or a year in a half. That he knew it had been a long struggle and to be patient a little while longer. He also gave me levoxyl, a muscle relaxer to help me at night and andipex to help me stay a wake during the day, 50,000mg of vitamin D because I did not have any in my system. My nutropin dosage started at .01 and over the next three years built up to 1.3. And although much cheaper then the pure HGH it was still expenses. By the time I paid my monthly medical premium, and the once a year sur-charge and then the montly cost of all the medicines it was a lot. But slowly I began to feel better. And when I say slowly I mean slowly. But finally at the age of 59 I was getting better. I thought John would be happy.
But he had his own issues.....he had lost his job and could not find one.
OCTOBER 22, 2010
I watched John walk out the door and I became an American cliche. John had left. He felt he had lost himself and he could not deal with the drama of my physical and psychological illness anymore. He had found someone else and felt he had to leave.
So there I was .....alone after ten years and 59 years old. I didn't think I would survive. In fact I tried not to survive it and in November of 2010 ended up in the emergency room. For one time I was in the right place at the right time when the doctor said you need some chicken soup.
Through the holidays I stayed alone. I could not pretend to be happy when I was so unhappy. Anit-depressants were not a choice because there had been very little research of anti-depressants and HGH. Also, as I mentioned before HGH stimulates cancer growth so if anyone in your family has had cancer HGH probably would not be an option for you.
Slowly Dr. Baluga built up my HGH levels. I was able to start exercising, walking the dogs, swimming but I my mental state was not in a positive place. How was I going to stay in Crooked Stick Cottage? How was I going to pay the mortgage? So many questions. I mostly stayed alone and away from friends because of my depression.
Pituitary Deficiency ....let me repeat that again and again, it is seldom diagnosed. And I believe there are many middle aged women and some men that suffer terrible consequences because they are not diagnosed.
As I time passed, I was losing the weight I had gain. Dr. Baluga told me to go do three things I had always wanted to do but didn't do and I so I go involved in horses. More.....later
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